Today I’ll try to catch up.
I feel behind in a lot of things right now. I still have tons of ornaments left from the ward Christmas party. It seems strange to deliver them after Christmas but it seems stranger to let them all go to waste.
I still have several books to deliver.
And I have several ministering calls I want, and need, to make.
All of this feels like a pressure, but it’s entirely something in my own mind. If I really think about it, the pressure comes from my pride. I fear the image of me failing. It’s not so much the actual failing as people seeing me fail. I have grand ideas, but trouble executing them, and when I don’t succeed at them I start to think that other people see me as flaky. How do I turn that idea upside down?
I guess, for one, at least I’m trying. Maybe it’s better to fail at a grand idea than to succeed at being mediocre. The decision to believe that or not is completely within my own power. Also, why be so concerned with what other people think of me. My greatest downfall in life is and will be an out-weighted concern for how I think I am percieved by others. I could do so much for myself and others if I was able to let that go.
If I need to pick one thing that would be most beneficial to me to turn around in the new year, it would be this. A quick google search comes up with the label FOPO for this. (fear of other peoples opinions)
Another quick google search brought me to a Harvard business review article on overcoming FOPO by Michael Gervais. Turns out I have a book by him. I think I’ll start the new year by reading that.
Come Follow Me
The best way to overcome fear of other peoples opinions is to be confident in my standing before Heavenly father.
along with studying the Doctrine & Covenants this year, I’m going to get back to regular reading in the Book of Mormon, starting today.
What stood out most to me in the reading this morning was how, when prophets came among the people, Lehi went and prayed on behalf of his people.
That is something I can do.