It has been apparent to me lately that much of my life is dictated by fear more than anything else. I fear to reach out to people. To ask things of them, or to even make myself available to them.
What I want to do is care for them, but how can I care for them if I fear them. Can we love what we are afraid of?
As so many first days of the week go, I want today to be a restart. I started to be embarrassed continually writing about starting new or starting over, but I’m going to do my best to stop being embarrassed.
Today the only thing I have calendared is to meet *** at the *** house at 7pm to give *** a blessing. He has a procedure later in the week to have part of his kidney removed because he has a cyst growing on it.
The most important things to accomplish today are finishing my spreadsheet of contacts for 2025, and communicating with *** and *** about the information they need to turn in to homeloanserv. I should also try to communicate with ,*** and the ***,
Come Follow Me
The Come Follow Me reading this week is Moroni chapters 1-6. One of my favorite verses is contained in this section. It’s verse 4 of chapter 6. The people of the church met together often to strengthen each other. The part I like the best is the end, where it’s written “relying alone upon the merits of Christ, who was the author and finisher of their faith.”
I want to live every moment with that attitude, but it is so difficult to do. I slip into other thoughts so easily. I forget Christ everyday, so often. A perfect day would be one where every action starts with the recognition that I am doing it for His sake, and the outcome is left in His hands, to do with as he wants. I can try to practice that today. I will do my best and remember that regardless of how well my ‘practicing’ goes, I rely on his merits alone, and the practice is an outward sign of my love for Him.
Daily reading – “Inspire Greatness”
I’ve started a new chapter, 7, about setting clear expectations. He starts by telling a story about an employee who made the decision to deliver groceries to an old man who was snowed in and whose daughter was calling stores to see if they would deliver. Cool story. I wonder if I could make a video about that.