An honest assessment is that I feel a little tired, and today I may not be as enthused as I usually am. Not everyday can be 100%. So I’ll pay attention to how I feel and do some things today to revitalize myself.
Jenn, Sienna, and I started a 40 day sugar fast yesterday. I’m looking forward to it. Jenn has a book that I guess a person would call a devotional, with 40 chapters, one for each day. It’s basically about loving and relying on the Lord more than worldly fixes, whether sugar, or social media, or any other addictive things.
It occurred to me yesterday that I chose long ago not to drink coffee, tea, or alcohol as a commitment to God. why should making the same commitment for sugar be so different? Especially when it has such a negative effect on my health. I feel like I should look on it as a promise to God to eat healthy.
My mind reflects more lately on the importance of keeping our promises to God. I think I’ve spent much of my life breaking promises to God more easily than to people here on Earth. I want to be more rigorous in my observance of the promises I have made.
A sharp change of subject is my listing that I plan on having go live today. I’m losing sleep on it, but there is really no good reason to. I think I’m feeling embarrassed to list it because it is not up to the quality I would like it to be, but the sellers are asking top dollar for it. How does one separate the personal feelings from the scenario where someone else is making the decisions?
This is a universal problem, not just a real estate problem. In any organization, how does one give their all even when the direction is not one they agree with 100%? And how does one give their all while not obsessing about the differences? It’s easy to make the choice to disassociate in my mind. I could tell myself that It’s not my decision and just not care or try. I can give the minimum amount of work needed and tell myself that they can steer the boat where they want to go because I’m not really riding it. Or I can lose sleep because I want to give my best and feel like my best will not cut it, and in the end I will have spent my emotional energy for nothing.
To rephrase this, I need to learn the trick of giving all my effort and know how to serve someone else’s vision while at the same time letting go of the responsibility for the outcome. How do I give my all when It seems, to me, like the ship is sinking? It’s a hard thing to do. It’s much easier to give minimal effort, or no effort, and then step back disdainfully with the attitude of “I told you so’.
I’ll make this my thought topic for the day, and see if I can come up with something.